For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8: 38 – 39
People that have had children and happen to be believers in Christ had told me that you could never truly understand the love of God until you had a child. Over the course of the last few weeks, that idea has been stapled to my mind. Every time I look at Brennan my heart just leaps with joy and amazement at who he is and who he’s becoming. I love Brennan more than I have loved anything – ever. Before I had Brennan I used to think I could never imagine how much I would love my own child because the love I had for Chula was so strong. I was clearly mistaken.
I feel like the Lord has been pressing on my heart these past few days how much He loves me. Now that I have an understanding of what it means to love a child, I can feel Him saying to me, “I love you that much, do you understand now?” Ben and I were talking about this today. Ben was saying he found it unimagineable how God was willing to sacrifice His only Son for him. He said he’d never sacrifice Brennan for another.
I agree with Ben. If I were told that another person’s life depended on the death of Brennan, I would tell that person that there was absolutely no way I would ever even consider that. How often do we think about Christianity and not realize what the message of the Gospel really is? This is the message: God so loved the world that He gave His only Son so that you will not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16) Simply stated? Yes. Seen it on a piece of cardboard in a downtown area? More than likely.
Wonderfully it is not that simple; there’s more to it. Not only does giving up one’s child go against human nature but it goes against nature in general. Whenever I was struggling with peers in school my mom would always tell me that the Mama Bear in her was coming out. Why? Because something in her told her that she had to protect me – every aspect of me. Not only my physical state but also my emotional well being. This is precisely why I am so in awe and in love with God because of what He has done.
I stated earlier that I cannot fathom giving up Brennan to save another’s life. God did it though. Not only did He allow Jesus to die but His entire wrath for the sins of His people were taken out on Jesus. Jesus was horrifically tortured and ridiculed. The Prince of Peace died in place of a crimal (Barabbas) who deserved it more than Christ did.
Regardless of whether you believe or not, I want to impress upon you how much God loves you. He willingly gave Christ as a sacrifice so that you can come to know Him and have the hope of eternal life. There is no longer a person (in Jewish custom, a high priest) that we have to go to reach Him. Lift up your hands, my friends, and come to know the God of the universe. Learn to love His Son for what He did for you (yes, specifically you).
What does that look like? I can tell you that it is not about a bunch of rules, a list of do’s and don’ts. It is waking up every day and knowing that there is more to life than this. It is understanding that when EVERYTHING around you is crumbling to pieces, you have Someone who loves you more than you can possibly imagine. It’s watching your mother-in-law, a woman you loved so much, not only have the courage to face cancer but also have the faith to lose the battle and know exactly where she was going. She lived her final months without fear; the peace and joy of the Lord radiated through her.
There is more to life than this Earth, my friends. I really think that as human beings we are designed to know this. How sad is life when you have absolutely no hope? My personal relationship with Christ has only benefited me and I sincerely hope that one day too you’ll come to know the joy that I’ve found.
The Lord loves you, my dear friend. He loves you with a passion that no human being has ever known. We cannot fathom it but it is the truth.

As the creator of the lifestyle blog Me Before Mom, Bert supports millennial moms facing the challenges and changes of motherhood. Me Before Mom is an online community that offers support through real life stories, encouraging advice, and answers to questions about how a woman maintains herself during this self-sacrificial time of parenthood. Stories from Bert Anderson have helped women across the globe through the Huffington Post, Today’s Parent, and on the Harry show. Whether weathering the first year of motherhood or walking through the later stages of motherhood, Bert has helped many continue to find herself while still in the throes of motherhood.